I Never Saw It Coming

In 2019 I had a very unexpected and unwanted visit from P.T.S.D. I say unexpected because I did not realize at the time what was happening. There I was making my way through day-to-day life the same as we all do until suddenly, I wasn’t. I was at a dead stop. I couldn’t focus. I wasn’t functioning. I wasn’t living. I was just … still.

As a hobby writer I tend to write many thoughts and stories down anyways and as I recovered from this visit from P.T.S.D it became clear that I needed to express myself in some way. Although I can and have verbally talked about the experience, I found it very difficult to write a memoir style story about it because the intensity of my memories acted as a trigger for me and just didn’t allow me to move forward with it. But this poem did come out and I’m grateful to this magazine for allowing me to share it.

Never be afraid to ask for help.